Stop And Smell The Roses.

It is funny how death makes you put things in perspective. My grandma passed away two days ago and it was kind of unexpected. It just reminds me that I should spend more time loving all of the great people I have in my life. I tend to get caught up in trivial things like weight and being frustrated because I can't keep a clean house or keep up with laundry. Losing someone close just tends to snap me back to reality. The time I waste stressing keeps me from enjoying!

I came across this poem last night and loved it! I spend so much of my day trying to get stuff done that sometimes I miss out on quality time with my kids. There will be a day when I will be able to keep up on housework but right now it will just have to get done when it gets done! I don't want my kids to remember me for my clean house I would rather they have fonder memories than that when I am gone.

Today I left some dishes dirty

the bed got made around 3:30.

The diapers soaked a little longer,

the odor grew a little stronger.

The crumbs I spilled the day before

are staring at me from the floor.
The fingerprints there on the wall

will likely be there still next fall.

The dirty streaks on those window panes

will still be there next time it rains.

Shame on you, you sit and say,

just what did you do today?

I held a baby till she slept,

I held a toddler while he wept.

I played a game of hide and seek,

I squeezed a toy and made it squeak.

I pulled a wagon, sang a song,

taught a child right from wrong.

What did I do this whole day through?

Not much that shows, I guess that's true.

Unless you think that what I've done,

might be important to someone

with deep blue eyes and soft blond hair.

If that is true.... I've done my share.

Too Fat To Chase The Wagon!

Well...... I went camping this weekend and let's just say I did not come home the skinny bitch I anticipated!!!! I previously posted/bragged about my six pound weight loss, well let's just make that a weight gain!!!! Yep that is me, Queen Gain Weight! I managed in three days to gain back all of the weight I had lost. I did follow the diet pretty well....but I let myself partake of a few things not on the "approved list". I did not expect to lose weight while I was gone but to gain that much? Seriously that sums up my life.... Pro/Expert at rapid weight gain!! That will get me far!!!

Really I sound like a big boohoo whaa baby, I know, but come on!!! How does one not feel picked on? The ability to gain weight at super human rates was not my super hero goal! I just don't understand! Even with cheating I still took in way less calories than normal. My next step is finding a rich sugar daddy that will pay for numerous surgeries! I give up!

I wonder what lesson god is trying to teach fat girls? Seems to me there are many other trials that I could have besides going through life in a fat suit! I am pretty sure if he created us... I mean me, he would be pretty embarrassed!!!!!!!! I know it's not as bad as I am making it out to be but a girls gotta vent!

UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!

4 lbs down 40 more to go!

Well I am 6 days into the HCG diet and have lost four lbs. Keep in mind that the first to days you have to gorge yourself and take in as much fat as possible. I have not starved myself to death yet, but I do get hungry! I will even admit that at times I have even been mad at myself for attempting the dumb diet, fat food just calls my name! I have tried to stay strong and I have only cheated here and there, well maybe a little bit more than that. I do have to give myself some credit though, 4lbs in 6 days is more than I have managed to lose in the last 4 years all together. Go HCG! My hope at the end of this is that I will be skinnier and have gained the willpower that I have always lacked. If I can do this I should be able to stick to a diet that doesn't require stabbing yourself with a needle every day(which I can almost do without hesitating 20 times)!

So to all you dieters out there, I have successfully maintained this diet for 6 days. In the past 2 days has been the most I have been able to stick to. If I can do 6 days than anyone can!

Cheers to the next six days!