Why the pretty face?

Have you ever noticed that if a guy thinks a skinny girl is hot, pretty, beautiful etc. he simply says to her "Man your hot" or "You are really pretty" and so forth? Well, if you have ever struggled with the chub you probably know that if a guy tells you that you are pretty it usually goes like this... "You have a really pretty face". Why is that? I can tell you why, men have this ego problem you see and though they may appreciate your beauty they can not admit to themselves that size isn't everything!!!!

My last upset/post was about my pictures from my bellydance trip to Vegas! How did that trigger a post on "pretty faces"? You guessed it, once again I was told by some random stranger that I had a "pretty face" Instead of thanking him I proceeded to do a fake kick to his groin and said "So what you think I'm fat" I then stomped my foot and marched off. Immature....yes, am I a little sensitive about my weight yes. I know he really was giving me a sincere compliment but why can't we just be pretty without being reminded we are not a size starve yourself ?

A few weeks ago we went on a family camping trip to Island Park, it is in Idaho and it is a beautiful place if you have never been. Anyways, we finally arrived after a 4 hour drive with a two year old and I can't tell you how excited I was to get out of the truck. So, I hop out and while Lance is getting the trailer all set up I went to chat with some family members (which included my aunt, my grandma and my other aunt who has Down syndrome). No kidding to seconds after I walk up my aunt ( the one with Downs) says "Stephanie still has all of her baby fat" keep in mind Ryker will be 3 next month! I tried to stay calm, considering she can't always help what she says, however honest it may be. My Grandmother tried to help me feel better by saying " It don't matter you have such a good personality and such a pretty face who cares what size you are". Geez thanks Grandma "pretty face" and "a good personality"! You gotta love family. I just went off in search of a labtop I had a strong urge for some blogging!

So my next goal is to not "lose weight" but rather to work out every day. I know I can it is all about making it a habit. So wish me luck, so far I have been squeezing in workouts at least twice a week and taking a dance class once a week. From now on it needs to be 6 days a week, I wont be dancing this year which sucks, it is a work out I actually enjoy.
Today was my first day of my new commitment and I even set my alarm and had exercised before the kids woke up. If I keep doing that there will be NO excuses, they tend to be my biggest interference when it comes to working out.
Hopefully by the next time I get around to blogging I will have stuck to my goal.

P.S.

By the way, we took first in our competition.:) That is a plus, even fat girls can be winners sometimes.......Yea!!!!!:)

I will post later about the whole pretty face experience! A compliment that is only given to fat girls (I know some of you know exactly what I am talking about).

Depressing End to a Depressing Day!

Wow! All I can say is Wow!!!!!!!!!!!

We recently traveled to Las Vegas for a Belly dance competition, and again Wow!!! One of the girls just posted at least 90 (for reals 90) pictures of how fat I am!!!!!!! I seriously was in tears!!

I felt insecure the whole time I was there but seeing the pictures, I obviously was not insecure enough!!!!! Holy cow, I can not express the emotions that ran through my head as I flashed all those photos. Sick.

What I don't get is... how is that not enough to make me starve myself? Freak, I hate to be a "poor me" person but I am gonna be right now!!! I have honestly worked hard this whole summer for this trip and you would think by lookin at these pic's that the thought of losing weight has not crossed my mind for at least three years. Again, sick! Why work and stress so much for that kind of a reward.?!

I tell ya I am going back to drinking coke!:) Anything to help me cope!!!!! Gag, I make myself sick.

Props to my hubby who acts like he still luvs me as much as ever!!!!!!